只要一分钟

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平安夜和圣诞夜.
我一口气地把从书局买回来的书都看完了.
一本是英文的, 一本是中文, 共同点就是, 两本都是关于宠物的真人故事.
Marley&Me说的是一只被他主人描述为世上最难搞的狗, 天天闯祸的一只拉布拉多. 永远精力充满的拉布, 家里的大破坏者, 天天在门口等着男主人的归来, 死命的摇晃着那有力的尾巴, 一拥扑过来, 口水满脸舔, 这是它表现它爱你, 你是它的全部, 没了你不行的作为. 作者从新婚后, Marley就一直都陪着成长, 生孩子, 变老, 一直到Marley呼出最后一口气. Marley活了十三年, 最后抵不过病痛的折磨, 主人决定让Marley安乐死.

只要一分钟里的女主角 - 蓝, 偶然在宠物店中救了一只隔天要被安乐死的黄金猎犬 - 里拉. 没养过宠物的蓝, 平时的工作都有够她忙了, 有了里拉后每天早上都要早起床带里拉去散步. 原本有男友协助的蓝, 有一天却分手了, 以前男友所承担的责任, 全都落到她身上. 在工作上的忙碌, 每晚又要赶着回家带里拉去散步, 上司的压力, 使得蓝曾经想过, 如果里拉死了, 生活就不会那么忙碌了. 一刹那闪过希望里拉死掉的念头, 就在这个时候, 发现里拉得了末期癌症. 蓝把生活步伐放慢, 抽出更多的时间陪伴里拉, 但最终里拉离开的那一刻, 蓝并不在它身边. 蓝边跑边祈求上天再给她一分钟, 但是, 里拉等不及了.

这本书里有段话让我看了好久都无法自拔: " 對狗狗來說，時間的長短不是問題，不管是一年還是一分鐘，只要能夠和自己最喜歡的人一起度過。對於人來說又何嘗不是如此，即使只有一分鐘，只要真心付出，這一分鐘就是生命中的永恆！"

我本身没养过狗. 不过, 我倒是养过几只猫, 而且这几只猫都如命运般注定, 它们都是橙色金黄毛小孩. 第一只猫, 被爸爸退车不经意地碾过; 第二只猫, 手术后肠道发炎离开了; 第三只猫, 莫名地被邻居发现卧尸在草丛旁. 这三只猫还有另一个共同点, 它们离开时, 我都不在身边. 第一只猫, 还是只小猫. 那天是我期待已久的周末, 我在屋前和小猫玩闹着, 老妈突然命令我去洗校鞋, 我千万个不愿意摸了摸小猫身上的毛, 转头拿校鞋. 当我刚拿着校鞋要踏入厕所时, 屋外传来了老妈的叫声. 我跑到门口时, 上一分钟还在活蹦乱跳的小猫, 已经没有生命迹象, 躺在血泊中.

第二只猫, 是只流浪猫. 在我家呆了没多久后发现她怀孕了. 三个月后, 它出现了难产的状况, 好几天都不吃不喝, 大多时间都躺在窝里喘息. 最后老爸把它送到兽医院去, 医生说猫只太年轻了, 生不出来, 胎死腹中, 必要进行流产手术. 手术后的那一天, 医生说猫只恢复状态不错, 再多几天就可以出院了. 我雀悦地等待它回来, 我万万没想到隔一天会从医生那里传来的坏消息, 猫只肠道发炎离开了. 我还记得老妈跟我说过, 在它难产的那几天, 它都会在我上学时间出外走, 然后又在学校巴士到家之前回到家里, 老妈说它也许是去找我了.

第三只猫, 也是只流浪猫. 是只标准的花花公子, 每天都会到处溜达, 不过天一黑时, 它都会准时回家吃晚餐, 然后懒洋洋地在书桌旁陪伴我. 有一段时期, 它会突然失踪好几天, 某天又突然出现, 好像什么事都发生那样, 在我书桌旁睡觉. 某个星期天, 父母都到教会去了, 我因着经痛在家里休息, 猫儿昨晚又没回来了, 又到那里去撒野了吧~ 当我正要出门买早餐时, 邻居从远方看到了我, 什么也不说, 把我带到附近的草场旁的草丛, 指了指里头那一块莫名的物体. 那个颈圈, 我不可能不认得, 是我的猫. 猫只身体已经完全腐涨, 硬硬地躺在那里. 我一时接受不了, 忘了要买早餐的事, 直奔回家大哭一场. 等老爸回来后, 才跟老爸去把猫只埋起来. 后来我从报章里读到了一篇文章, 文章里有句话说 : " 忠心的宠物都不会在主人面前离开, 它们都会静悄悄地离开你."

经历这三只猫后, 我怀疑自己是个没用的主人, 只会给猫只带来坏运, 于是接下来的那几年, 我都不敢去养猫了. 几年后, 回家乡时发现家里的母猫生了几只小猫, 家人说过几天就要把小猫丢给乡里的人了. 我们都懂, 给乡里的人, 就等于要结束小猫的生命. 我开始说服自己, 再试一次好不好, 也许这一次会不一样. 我鼓起勇气, 不管小猫的挣扎, 双手把那只橙色金黄毛小孩抓了起来, 喃喃自语说: "小猫啊, 跟我回家吧, 好不好?"

我带着兴奋的心情, 脚上不安份的小猫陪着我坐了三个小时的车程, 抵达它的新家. 到了屋内后, 小猫使力的挣扎, 小巧的猫爪在我手上不留情地画了好几痕. 我束手无策只好把它放下, 小猫的脚只一碰触到地面后便死命往前跑, 躲到书桌下去. 在车上没得好好休息的我, 已经身疲力尽, 只希望小猫能乖乖听话, 好好地在这新家度过第一个晚上. 最后, 我使出了食物的诱惑, 把那只饿鬼给引了出来. 由于老妈不让我和小猫同房, 我只好把小猫留在客厅里的小盒里. 晚上睡觉时, 小猫在客厅里停不住的喵喵叫, 来到陌生的环境, 在黑漆漆的地方, 肯定很不安. 我偷偷地开了房门, 到楼下寻找小猫. 小猫看见有人下楼来, 又乱跑找了个地方躲起来. 我轻声的呼唤着小猫, 被我发现到它竟躲在沙发后方. 我把小猫抓了出来, 坐在地上, 一次又一次抚摸小猫的黄毛身. 小猫终于累了, 眼睛眨呀眨, 慢慢地睡着了. 那天我也在客厅陪它睡了.

小猫很快的就适应了新生活, 不用教它也会用猫沙, 食欲一天比一天大, 破坏的东西越来越多, 小小的身躯也不知何时长得那么大了. 之前养猫的经验告诉我, 我要比任何人都更珍惜和宠物相处的时间, 因为你不知道它闷何时会离开你. 我尽我所能, 把最好的都给猫只, 放学回来后都陪着它玩, 有时会偷偷地让它在我房里过夜. 呆在电脑前时, 那只过重的猫都会跳我脚上来睡, 怎么赶也赶不走. 躺在沙发上时, 它也很鸡婆地来叉一脚. 在厕所如厕时也要在门外的地布躺着等我出来. 有时候我会把它高高抱起问它 : "你是猫还是狗啊? 怎么那么形影不离?" 真是忠心的家伙.

有一年圣诞节, 圣诞树上的袜子不见了, 奇迹般地被老妈在厨房那里找到了. 我把袜子挂回树上去, 顿时有个黄黄的身影不知从何处刹出来, 往树上一跳, 把袜子瞄准一口咬走后逃之夭夭. 我当时被吓着了, 家里几时多出这会偷东西的猫啊? 我往賊猫的方向追着去, 把它口中的袜子拔出来, 又把东西挂到树上去. 那毛小孩又冲了出来, 趁它还没来得及跳起来时, 我把袜子挂到树的顶端去. 猫儿使劲地跳上去, 扑了个空, 我在一旁大声的笑了出来. 它无奈地在树旁坐了好久, 最后还是故装潇洒地走开了.

老妈说过这毛小孩如公鸡般地准时, 每早六点钟就会在门口乱撞, 造出铁门咯咙咙地响. 这时老妈就会下楼把大门给开了, 还没请安就往楼上奔去. 走到我房门口, 又来再一次的撞门, 一声又一声地喵喵叫. 我每次都会因为受不了它的叫声, 迷迷糊糊地走下床把房门给开了. 那只猫小孩又期待又兴奋地在房里猛冲, 跳上书桌, 再跳到衣橱, 再跳去书橱, 一大早就精力充沛地跳来跳去. 我抵不住睡神的呼唤, 开了门后又回到床上呼噜大睡. 当我睡得正甜时就会听到一声巨响, 把眼睛睁开后发现那臭小子把衣橱上的水罐给推掉在地上. 当我正要起来收拾那只闯祸的家伙时, 它就一溜烟从房门冲了出去. 我被气到无法再睡下去, 气怒地下楼去找那家伙算帐. 不过, 它竟然在它的盘子前若无其事地吃着它的早餐, 老妈看了后心里一定想说毛小孩干得好, 她也不用上楼去叫醒我了. 那家伙假日也不放过我, 准时六点在我门口喵喵叫 "快开门吧~ 快快开门啊~" 放纵了它, 一开门又是一阵乱钻, 有好几次都从我床头跳到我身上, 吓了我一大跳, 有几次还更过份地跳到我头上来. 我用被单都把全身盖了起来, 动动了脚矫个好睡姿. 那家伙看到被单下有东西动来动去, 启动了它的捕猎野性, 两个尖爪往我的小腿爪了一下, 嘴巴一张, 咬下去! 哇哇哇~ 我当下真是气到把那只家伙丢到房门外, 把房门给关了起来. 上楼路过不知情的老妈看见毛小孩在房门外叫着, 又把房门给开了. 我的早晨往往都没什么美好.

毛小孩被我和家人喂到肥肥胖胖, 连猫棒都懒得玩, 不过每天早上必行之务, 它从来都不放过. 下过雨的晚上都会特别冷, 毛小孩很懂得人类的腿是暖暖的, 只要是被它物色中的那双腿, 休想可以躲过他. 家人当中, 它最喜欢老爸的腿, 老爸在电脑前敲敲打打时, 都是它在脚上陪伴着他. 有几次出远外时, 没办法带它同行, 就把它留在屋外, 把食物都准备多几份. 每次远处时都不敢去太久, 往往都是隔天就回了. 隔天一回到家时, 我四处呼唤它, 这时就会听到铃铃铛铛响着, 又很大声的喵喵叫, 好像我离开了一个月, 一副饿鬼样从邻家拼了命跑回来.

在它失踪的前一晚, 我破例地在客厅上网到凌晨三点, 它也一直都在我身边躺睡着. 担心着老妈随时下楼来看见我还在上网, 我只好把那家伙放到屋外去. 那一天, 他很异常地抗拒, 不停地往屋内钻. "乖乖啦~ 明天再进来啦~" 我又把它放到了屋外. 那一次. 是我看到它, 的最后一次了. 隔天早上, 没了它的吵闹, 早餐, 午餐, 晚餐它都没回来. 过了几天, 几个星期, 几个月, 几年.. 它都没回来了. 它现在在哪里, 还活着, 过得好不好, 我都不知道. 它完完全全地从我生命中消失了.

四年了. 我都不敢再去对另一条生命负责任.
今年头时我还曾想过要去领养一只狗, 让它每天早上陪我散步, 偶而驾车带它去兜风. 我把一切都想像得太美好了. 我这两天读的书, 让我领悟到, 养只狗的责任有多大. 我还记的"我和狗狗的十个约定"里有条约定说: "你在学校里会有很多朋友, 你还有我, 但是, 我只有你." 我看到这一句话是, 我顿时热泪盈眶. 对啊, 这小生命交到你手上, 你就要为它那十几年的生命负责任. 它把它的生命都交到你手中, 它也必全心全意地只对你一个人忠心. 天天在门口等着你回家, 尾巴摇到好像快断掉了, 就只期待你回家后再带它去散步. 它们最怕再也看不到你, 不贪名和利, 只希望你能陪它到永恒. 只要你呼唤它, 它都会好像一个月没见的期待往你奔去, 把你舔个够.

珍惜. 这是人类往往做不到的事. 我也做不到.
心里有冲动要养狗的人, 不如你多观查几个月, 你的生活作息是否适合养宠物, 你能天天陪它去散步, 直到它离开的那一天呢?

永远不放弃. 无论你怎么折磨它.
它都只想要和你在一起.

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明天就大考了.

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我发现到就是有些人. 头脑结构跟我很不一样.
当人家认真说真心话的时候, 他就当你放屁.
后来你开个玩笑的时候, 他就给你来一拳.
实在是.
丝毫无恶意, 纯粹要令君子一笑的话语, 却换来一盆盆的冷水泼来.
但我一直相信, 那些没经过大脑说出来的话, 我根本不应该送去大脑里处理.

还有啊, 今天是JYJ的showcase.
说实在的, 当我听说他们要来的事候. 我还真的没什么兴奋.
打从他们三人去年7月提出控诉后, 我对他们的好感已经在跌了.
他们依然很高调地进行活动, 而剩下的两人因公司的管制, 不如以前那般活跃.
毕竟我们只是旁观者, 真相是什么我不知道, 谁对谁错我不急.
但是, 丢下成员, 自个儿控诉去, 怎么说也是不大好的了.
想当年我如痴如醉地爱上他们, 我现在较理智了.
官方讨人欢心的话我已听不下去. 我只愿意听他们对人生的不满, 主见性的话较耐听.
那圈子里的东西, 是真是假分辩不出.
别把他们的话句句当真, 因为他们毕竟也是人类, 被包装后显得更不一样的人类而已.
他说很开心可以见到歌迷, 我也当着是官方话了. 别忘了他们是靠我们来赚口饭吃.
总之, 他们是娱乐者, 我是观众. 对, 我就是要酱冷血.

呃. 我明天大考. 我还在这里闲逛.
我真的是自信心爆棚了.
握爪. 散.

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艺人

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其实也没什么. 只是刚才看到了Shinee Key的专访翻译文.
读着这文章时, 刚好听着MATE的歌, 该死.
没有华丽花俏, 没有嘴甜讨女生开心的话语.
比起其他成员, 他的话显得好现实, 好刺心.
形成了一个很大的落差.
当艺人没你想像中那么的自由.
当了艺人, 自由这两个字不再是属于你的.
观众要看的是他们想看的, 而不是你想让大家看的.
天天都有人搞新花样, 你不知道你何时会被踢出圈子.
这圈子不像学生读书那样, 有付出就有成果.
你也许拼了命, 人家却不屑揪你一眼.
身上享有虚假的荣华富贵, 背后的龌鹾手段, 谁知.
明星自杀率也莫名地上升.
这些天天还能嘻嘻哈哈的孩子们, 是否知道将来有什么苦头等着他们.
我们这些腐女天天观注他们, 哪天失去了, 心里一定会很空虚.

会不会有机会在舞台上给大家唱你最喜欢的歌？
好像没有那个机会。喜欢的和该做的是两回事。

孩子们, 加油!
我不知道你们光鲜亮丽的生活背后是怎样的, 更不知道当艺人是什么滋味.
我只知道天天被监视, 渴望做得更好的日子, 一点都不好过.
选择过着与其他同龄人不一样的生活, 并不像你口中说出的那些话简单.

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今天在报纸读到了一篇有关男同志的文章.
我不知道你们是怎么想的, 我不知道你们接不接受这样的状况.
如果你在三年前问我这问题, 我想也不想就会说不接受的.
不过,在这几年种种原因的熏陶下, 我接受了, 还很喜欢.
我总觉得这是一种得来不易的感情, 双方都要先出柜才能走下去.
然而, 在种种的家庭及社会压力之下, 这段感情往往都会不了了之.

其实啊, 我觉得同志并不奇怪.
同志当中也是会有花花公子, 床伴换个不停的, 一脚踩几艏船的, 感情乱个不了的.
只不过, 双方都是男生. 就酱罢了.
我碰过一些很歧视同志的人.
我只能说, 你大概是还没去了解一下他们的世界.


文章当中有个蛮有趣的部份.
问: "你对男同志爱去健身有什么看法?"
答: "我只能说, 人就是爱美. 每个人都有权利去把自己变好, 让其他人欣赏. 我不懂别人怎么想, 我只知道一样东西, 就是'吸引力'. 如果没有人在乎, 上帝应该把人类都捏成一个包子的形状就好啦. 我们有独特的人的样子, 不是要去互相吸引对方吗? 无论是外表或者内在, 是天生的, 是后天造成的, 那是一种吸引对方的能量."

我看了之后, 也对呀. 如果人类都像bacteria那样一团团的, 那么人类根本就不用去选伴侣了, 因为全部都一样样的.


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call me what?

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I.
I don't have an english name.
i mean those maria. mary. rose. lucy. nana. name.
dad gave me an english name when i was standard 6 - catherine.
simple enough? because i told him i love cats, so he named me CAT-herine.
after a couple of years, catherine sounded LAME to me. why would i name myself over something that i like? tak special pun!
then i thought of another name - Vyncie.
5 out 10 people don't know how to pronounce it. its basically Vin-cy. yea.
but besides then Vyncie, i have minshi, bingsee, bingbing, bingsee tan, bing and they all sound almost the same.
how lame again?
i used to hate my malay name - bingsee. because it sounds like a guy's name.
but later on, and now - i'm lovin my name!

so just call me AH BING AAAAAAAH~!

:)

crapping haunts me at 3.42am.

bha. 8am class later. kill it.


night! :D
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错过.

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我有时候, 都会错过身边美好的.
至从FORM2那一年美好的错过 就告诉我要多多留意身边的人.
我说的是男生. 对. 就是好男生.
我现在有点desperate, 就暂时原谅我的花痴ness.
那一年有位不错的男生向我示好. 当时的我是外貌协会成员. 婉言谢绝.
那孩子年纪比我小. 身躯比我大.
怎知道是不是那孩子初恋被打破, 趁年终假期变成另外一个令我目不转睛的人.
我不夸张, 同级的女生们天天都绕着他转.
和他见面时, 他那脸上的春风满意. 我无言.
高中跟某男同班一年, 从来没注意到他的存在.
男生啊, 就是喜欢突然间大转变. 不过, 可欣的是, 我没错过这男生.
刚才还看到一个曾经在我大学时期向我示好的人.
我当时还以为他目的不实, 处处躲开.
今天给我看到他当上模特儿, 我又无言了.
我怎么一直错过身边好条件的男生呢?


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i dreamt of owning 2 of the cute creature in the picture.
i always wanted to keep this mini-sized pet, but when i thought of their life span, i feel that its not worth it to leave me to sadness after 1-2years.
i used to have cats, kittens and meows. i started having cat when i was 9years old.
my dad 'crashed' my first kitten, totally heartbroken.
the following cats died with reasons, the last cat i had for 1.5years gone missing and yet no where to be found.
after so many times keeping cat, and each time i shed tears when they left me alone, my mum warned me not to keep any pet.
sometimes i just don't get it, why do people's cats can live with the master throughout the whole life, but mine never lasted more than 2years?
i never abuse my cats, you can judge that by looking at their excessive obese fats. maybe i over pampered them and they think they need a strict master. that one i cannot help la.
but why?
people, animals, things that i love so much will eventually leave me, earlier than i thought it would be.
or, maybe i should start hating the things i love, so that they will stay with me? :)
now, i'm scared to keep another pet. or another person.

i will just wait. and will not desperately seek for one again.



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i had so many things in my mind just now.

someone became so annoying, for that 20mins.

forget & forgive.


suan liao.


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double work. triple work.

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how i wish group members are actually the ones to share your difficulties at doing assignments and lab reports.
and not the one to give you false hope and ruining your nights.

my nights were ruined because
i believed in my mates.
and they disappointed me.

you are all grown up.
and i am not your school teacher to give guidance to the answers.
you are the one who have to seek for answer.
i can do it.
but why you cant?
give me one reason?
our brain structure is the same no?

what my friend said was true,
at the end,
only one person in the group is really doing all the works.

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so sick of this.
why people are so dependent on others.

do they live for others or others live for them?

once, twice, thrice, enough!

you seemed so USED to it.
and u thought its NORMAL for you.

but its aint okay for me you know?

why are you taking this advantage on me?
because you think i would never say no huh?
if i said no, you're going to backstab me.
if i said yes, you're going to keep 'using' me.

fu.
it has been 4years you know?
fu. seriously fu.

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i don't get this.
why do some people just show their whatever feelings through facial expression. words. actions. without thinking or re-thinking?

oh. i'm pissed.
oh. i'm mad at you.
oh. whyth did you do this to me.
oh. why are you asking me this.
oh. how the hell i know how.
oh. whatsoever.

you know, people can read your emotions through your words.
words reveal your anger, your disappointment, your hype.
some people have really 'impulsive' message.
they add hundred thousands of "???????" or "!!!!!!!!!" after their sentences.
does that make sense?
are you trying to emphasize your words until that great extend?
idk, maybe its your style, but i seriously tak suka that style.
it makes me feel that you're in anger or super excitement, when actually you're not.

i try to hold back any anger in me whenever i am.
if i managed to.
i am not a hypocrite.
i just don't like to ruin the atmosphere.
i 'dislike' people who try to pick up a fight.
or trying to create chaos.
they simply just wanting to show the ego in themselves.
they want to let people know how great they are, standing up for rights and deals.
i don't understand people who are at the same age as me,
still do backstab people and asking me why do i make friends with 'those' people.
oh well, i don't see a need to break that relationship do i?
i may agree of what you've told me, but that doesn't mean that i have to hate the people like you do.
If, the person did something bad to me too.
i will only tell about their bad things only when people ask me about it,
definitely not going around promoting the bad people about that particular person.

and tonight.
i was kinda disappointed at my brother's replies.
sorry for troubling you.
but all i did was just asking you a few questions.


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you

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don't fly too high
if u've just started to learn
how to fly.

u'll drop
very hard.

do things which are in front of u.
not seethrough it.
because u'd never know what's ahead of it.

u may predict.
but u may fall
very hard.
but not to be afraid of falling hard.
but endurance.
endure the pain
if u're the one who wanted the pain.

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good luck.


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一定是太久没有买东西了.
忘了买东西是什么感觉.
刚才真的有很多东西要买的,
看多两眼就完全没想买的兴致了.

哎喂哟啊.


不花钱算了.

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you

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wanting some attention?

not now.


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why denying?
your stupid excuses betrayed you.
very stupid.
just admit it and say 'oh yes, i was wrong'

everyone knows you're denying.


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bums

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*deep breathe* ha, sad sad sad. rather than feeling sad, its more like disappointment(?) and i'm so used to it. i don't know if this thing happens only in my family. i think, in most of the family, the mothers usually respond to their children immediately. but for me, its a different story. no, my mom is not working, she's just a housewife, she has no excuse to ignore me while watching her tv right? she ignores me, she ignores my words, my questions, my acts; sometimes i feel that she's just like a housekeeper. i didn't mean that i think she's my housekeeper, but hey, mom does more that just chores right? i need more interaction, a mother-daughter interaction. i think we had the most interaction during shopping time, when we're surrounded by the public. kinda hypocrite. ah, i don't like how she transforms 180deg when outsiders are around.

and my dad, ha, another sad case. my dad and i used to be very close, like how i used to cry everytime he went outstation. but ever since we moved to a bigger city, as he's holding higher position, he put 100% efforts into his work, thus, no more free time for me. weekends are supposed to be break time, but still, he brings all his work back home and continue doing it. which means, he has no break throughout the whole week. his work load isn't that much, just that he tends to spend more time even on some simple thingy, rather than making some breaks. but sometimes, he did bring us out to malls, but u're so not gonna get his opinion on stuffs since his concentration is 100% at his blackberry. pathetic huh. dad ignores me too. his mind can only be used for one task, no multitasking. he seems to be no respond to whatever i'm doing, even when u're talking to him, he would just give a 'har har har?' respond and continued with his work. most probably if i fall down in front of him, he wouldn't realize it too. i think sometimes he feel guilty at me, that's why he's paying his debts by buying gadgets and stuffs that i wanted.

everytime when we're on rides, i grab the opportunity to talk about my life, but somehow, they cut off my topic and popped with their own conversation. wait, what? so u guys are not interested with my story right? fine. i'm so not going to talk about my life anymore. i'm not going to tell u guys when i'm going, what time i'm going back, who i'm going with, what for i'm going out, no more. because i think u both don't even bother to know. but, anyhow, u both are still my parents, i have the responsibility to tell u guys where when what i'm doing. i just want a little attention from u.

sorry, end of rants.

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我回来了.
前两个月都抱着,"这是最后了,好好珍惜"的心态过着剩下的日子.
你说什么,我都忍.
你要什么,我都给.
但是,决定是不是就这样定了呢?
彷徨了好久,交叉路口两边的风景都很好.
这里有的,那里没有;这里没有的,那里有.
不过现在,我真的很想念那里.
好不舍得.


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今天才发现到,一个人的歌声是会怎样给到你不一样的感觉. 如果你以为我想说我从某个歌星听来的声音感动到我的话,那你就错了. 真正能感动到你心灵的声音,是一定要亲耳听见那人亲身唱的. 今晚的中秋晚会他上台唱了,不过那个还是透过MIC,再透过SPEAKER的歌声,却没不到我的注意. 但是,刚才他和一班朋友坐在了一起, 我也那么巧合和他坐在同一排的座位上. 朋友们起哄要他献唱, 当时他还很臭屁地说要唱他最拿手的歌. 那时我还在想,天啊,怎么会有这样的男生啊? 朋友也只不过是哄哄罢了嘛,干吗那么得意啊? 但是,从他口中唱出那首英文歌HOME, 却是立刻震撼到了我. 那是一首慢歌,没技巧的人是决对唱不好的, 但是他却完美一字一句很有感觉的唱了出来,他的歌声真的会让人有种舒服的感觉,你会一直想听下去,多么希望就听着他的歌声睡着去. 回宿舍的路上,我很专心地听他唱着每首歌,我只能说,我爱上他的歌声了,完全爱上了. 我对他完全改观了,他平时的不自然和怪气, 我已经用这把歌声,原凉了他. 下车后我还访问了他, 发现到他并没有受过任何训练,全然是,与生俱来的天赋. 我看啊,以后每次见到他时,我都会让他唱首曲子吧! 哈~

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最近都受到几个陌生人突然的关心,心里是很开心的,但却浮出莫名的担心. 毕竟都是才见过一次面的人, 话也没说上几句, 突然蹦出来的热情关切,我还是应该有所保留. 不过,在这里的这几个月我真的遇到了好多贵人. 本人是比较不善于表达,但是,你们真的太好了! 好到我会怀疑你们是不是心怀不好意的, 哈~我真是很坏呢. 我希望,我在你们眼里只是个新来的菜鸟学妹,而你们都是伟大乐于助人的大哥哥们! 哈~

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认真的男人果然是很有魅力的,摆下你平时的嬉闹,我今天又是见证到不一样的你. 没了平时的便装, 你换上了那端庄的制服; 没了一班朋友在你身边玩闹,却是一班的重要人物随你身边; 没了平时爱笑的脸, 却看见了你一脸的专业严肃. 当时我想, 要是你平时也这样就好了啊~ 全城的女人都会为你倾倒啊,那不是如你所愿的吗? 哈~

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今天真的感触良多, 头脑思考着太多东西. 好累,要睡了啦. 嘻~

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笑吧,男孩~

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是他让我觉得'笑'真的很重要.

笑,要真心地笑,要不然,怎样都不好看了.
是他让我在注意异性时,只注意笑容.
我真的很喜欢笑容灿烂的男生 ^^

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suddenly.
don't feel like.
going.
anymore..




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