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*deep breathe* ha, sad sad sad. rather than feeling sad, its more like disappointment(?) and i'm so used to it. i don't know if this thing happens only in my family. i think, in most of the family, the mothers usually respond to their children immediately. but for me, its a different story. no, my mom is not working, she's just a housewife, she has no excuse to ignore me while watching her tv right? she ignores me, she ignores my words, my questions, my acts; sometimes i feel that she's just like a housekeeper. i didn't mean that i think she's my housekeeper, but hey, mom does more that just chores right? i need more interaction, a mother-daughter interaction. i think we had the most interaction during shopping time, when we're surrounded by the public. kinda hypocrite. ah, i don't like how she transforms 180deg when outsiders are around.

and my dad, ha, another sad case. my dad and i used to be very close, like how i used to cry everytime he went outstation. but ever since we moved to a bigger city, as he's holding higher position, he put 100% efforts into his work, thus, no more free time for me. weekends are supposed to be break time, but still, he brings all his work back home and continue doing it. which means, he has no break throughout the whole week. his work load isn't that much, just that he tends to spend more time even on some simple thingy, rather than making some breaks. but sometimes, he did bring us out to malls, but u're so not gonna get his opinion on stuffs since his concentration is 100% at his blackberry. pathetic huh. dad ignores me too. his mind can only be used for one task, no multitasking. he seems to be no respond to whatever i'm doing, even when u're talking to him, he would just give a 'har har har?' respond and continued with his work. most probably if i fall down in front of him, he wouldn't realize it too. i think sometimes he feel guilty at me, that's why he's paying his debts by buying gadgets and stuffs that i wanted.

everytime when we're on rides, i grab the opportunity to talk about my life, but somehow, they cut off my topic and popped with their own conversation. wait, what? so u guys are not interested with my story right? fine. i'm so not going to talk about my life anymore. i'm not going to tell u guys when i'm going, what time i'm going back, who i'm going with, what for i'm going out, no more. because i think u both don't even bother to know. but, anyhow, u both are still my parents, i have the responsibility to tell u guys where when what i'm doing. i just want a little attention from u.

sorry, end of rants.

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