cny; it's different this year.

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cny is never going to be the same anymore.
both sides grandparents are not here anymore.
i'm feeling this emptiness when i see no wrinkled face old man welcoming me at the doorstep.
he's not here. she's not here.

no one is going to hold the video camera and wave at us.
no one is going to give me the biggest angpow.
no one is going to be there until everyone finishes the food.
no one is going to sit there and have her liquor anymore.
no one is going to brush his teeth at where he always used to.
no one is going to open our room door to check if we're asleep.
no one is going to sit at the porch watching their grandchildren.
no one is going to fetch the kids for dimsum breakfast.
no ons is going to fetch the kids to church.
no one is going to sit in front her sewing machine and make blanket.
no one is going to ask my parents about my study.
no one is going to smile at when she sees me walking by.
no one is going to make my favorite sauce.
no one is going to wet market and get my favorite petai.
no one is going to rise earlier than anyone else to open the big door.
no one is going to drive his old car.
no one is going to be in that room.
no one is going to collect the wrapping paper and paste them on wall.
no one is going to collect all the nice boxes.
no one is going to discipline the dogs.
no one is going to tell me to be a good kid.


no one seems to be there.



appreciate them. people. <3



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