she's not happy with her first day in uni. =(

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owh. there goes my first day. smoothly. boringly. scarily.
my class started at 12.30noon, met up with michelle in the office. made my payment, passing that big number cheque to the staff just aches my heart. i hate to burden my family on money thingy. i just hate the feeling of biting off quater of their pocket, just so hating it. hate it. activated my student account. rushed over to class, no one looked friendly. my questions were long, their answers were damn short. am i being sensetive or what? even the stares don't look pleasant. hmph. is this the difference between localU and privateU? u afford to pay more so u can gaya is it? behtahan. the unfriendlyness really almost made me to tears. i sat down, same row with a couple. lecturer's voice was too soft, he refused to use the mic because he didn't want his broken english to be heard loudly.
class ended at 2pm, rushed to 2nd floor-kind of excited to enter chemistry lab. but damn, chem lab is closed for this week, so no labwork for this week. oh man, how am i going to kill the 3 hours interval time? i sat down in front the next bio class. stared at the floor for half an hour, finally gave up and moved myself to the library. i was just too scared to ask about the wireless service. so i occupied one table and rewrite my calculus notes. but i still have 2hours after finishing the notes. i was so bored to death. so lonely to death. so unfamiliar to death. so scared to death. so awkward to death. so clueless to death. so...... damn to death. finally 3hours gone.. here comes my bio class. finally met my coursemates. but sadly, i couldn't make friends with the chinese gang, yet. hopefully i will one day. i just feel more comfortable in cina gang. anyway, i met this kenyan friend, she's preeeeeeeeety! and a few sitting near to me, they're nice. cute. the cinas has their own gang, so i find it hard for me to interupt them, how to break the gate and squeeze me in? Ah. i'm so lonely. C.N.Blue's "i'm a loner" suits me, very much.




bhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..





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